{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Amber Bird | Blog","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.amberbird.com\/blog","author_name":"amber","author_url":"https:\/\/www.amberbird.com\/blog\/author\/admin\/","title":"Not Ashamed: Depression (Not Physiologically Caused) - Amber Bird | Blog","type":"rich","width":600,"height":338,"html":"<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"Ny8YGwAlGw\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.amberbird.com\/blog\/2015\/03\/15\/not-ashamed-depression-not-physiologically-caused\/\">Not Ashamed: Depression (Not Physiologically Caused)<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" src=\"https:\/\/www.amberbird.com\/blog\/2015\/03\/15\/not-ashamed-depression-not-physiologically-caused\/embed\/#?secret=Ny8YGwAlGw\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8220;Not Ashamed: Depression (Not Physiologically Caused)&#8221; &#8212; Amber Bird | Blog\" data-secret=\"Ny8YGwAlGw\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\"><\/iframe><script>\n\/*! This file is auto-generated *\/\n!function(d,l){\"use strict\";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&\"undefined\"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!\/[^a-zA-Z0-9]\/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),c=new RegExp(\"^https?:$\",\"i\"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display=\"none\";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute(\"style\"),\"height\"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):\"link\"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute(\"src\")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener(\"message\",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener(\"DOMContentLoaded\",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll(\"iframe.wp-embedded-content\"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute(\"data-secret\"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+=\"#?secret=\"+t,e.setAttribute(\"data-secret\",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:\"ready\",secret:t},\"*\")},!1)))}(window,document);\n\/\/# sourceURL=https:\/\/www.amberbird.com\/blog\/wp-includes\/js\/wp-embed.min.js\n<\/script>\n","description":"If you haven\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t already, please read the introduction post. That will give you context for this page. (Trigger warning: depression, self harm, suicide) Look at me, actually writing a topic in the posted order! I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m guessing you oughtn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t get too comfy with that. But let\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s appreciate it whilst it happens. Today, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m going to talk a bit about when I was depressed for a long while and it wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t just the bipolar thing. I know that definitions and terms change and that I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m not a qualified mental health professional, so I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m leery of using actual terms. And, when I was seeing the therapist who helped, my mind state was enough a mess that I didn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t really file away whatever term she used at the time. Basically, even before the bipolar hit me (before there were any mania symptoms), the depression hit and hit hard. And I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d probably have been less exhausted for a great deal of my life if I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122d not actually been trying to hide that I wasn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t okay. Fortunately, someone who saw through me was also able to get me some help. The great thing about this other kind of depression I was dealing with (and that has [&hellip;]","thumbnail_url":"https:\/\/www.amberbird.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/08\/AmberBird_fromPF_portraitSQ.jpg","thumbnail_width":1324,"thumbnail_height":1324}